Portsmouth star Lomana LuaLua has vowed not to let internet abuse force him out of Fratton Park.
The striker has pledged to stay at the south coast club despite his hurt at cruel taunts on websites and he insists his matchwinning penalty against Watford last Saturday was the first part of the healing process.
The DR Congo international admitted he considered leaving the club after reading insults on Pompey messageboards calling him a wife-beater and saying they were glad his son was dead.
But LuaLua, who lost his six-month-old son Jesus to pneumonia in January and was recently arrested - without charge - after a bust-up with his fiancee at home, has vowed to battle on with Harry Redknapp's side.
'Sometimes you get an opportunity to turn bad things into good. That's why I wanted to take the penalty last Saturday,' he said.
'You think to yourself things can't keep going wrong and that you have to be man enough to try to change things.
'I don't take penalties normally but I saw this one as a chance to turn something negative into something positive.
'I thought about leaving. When you're upset, the first thing you can sometimes think is that you want to run away.
'But I'm a fighter. I don't run away from things. It's been a hard year, but you've got to be strong. You've got to be a man.
'I've signed a contract for another three years here. I love it here playing for Portsmouth.'
LuaLua was thrilled by the reaction he received from fans before Saturday's game and told Portsmouth News: 'Two boys came up to me and one said `we love you LuaLua'. That touched my heart. That was sweet.
'One asked me to score a goal for him because it was his birthday. I said I would try my best. So that was nice.'
He added: 'I have a very good relationship with the fans. I won't look at the internet any more. I also got an awful letter from someone relating to a lot of things. So that has made me wary about opening my mail.
'But it is probably just a small group of people saying these things. I've got to ignore them and get on with my life.
'I'm just going to keep my head down and play football and bring good things to Portsmouth Football Club.'